The last 2 days have been exhausting. I hate drama with those I love. I hate arguing. I hate crying. I hate feeling as if I can't talk to loved ones.
Tonight I plan to go to bed early. Tomorrow has got to be better than the last two days. Please!!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Families are Hard
So, this morning I got mad enough at a member of my family that I hung up on them. If you are a member of my family and are picking up the phone to call me and see what I am talking about, DON'T, I'm not going to tell you about it. What happened to make me mad is not important. What happened next is the important part. I took some time to calm down, calmed down, called the person back and talked through the issue.
Families, whether by birth, marriage or choice, are hard. Families are messy. Families are all in your business, whether you want them there or not. One thing families are not is optional! It is not an option to give up on a family member - at least not in my world. They make you mad, you get over it and call them back.
I've known a lot of people that aren't close to their family and I have never understood it. My siblings have been a constant in every stage of my life. I speak to them and see them as often as I can. Families are our shared history. When we talk about having a weinie roast and seeing if Beth will sing 'Neighbors', my siblings and I laugh because we have that shared history. When my friends from high school post, 'It's 11:11" on Facebook, we all laugh because we understand, 30 years later, what it means.
I am not always the best wife, daughter, mother, sister, or friend that I can be. But I never stop trying to do better. Do you?
Families, whether by birth, marriage or choice, are hard. Families are messy. Families are all in your business, whether you want them there or not. One thing families are not is optional! It is not an option to give up on a family member - at least not in my world. They make you mad, you get over it and call them back.
I've known a lot of people that aren't close to their family and I have never understood it. My siblings have been a constant in every stage of my life. I speak to them and see them as often as I can. Families are our shared history. When we talk about having a weinie roast and seeing if Beth will sing 'Neighbors', my siblings and I laugh because we have that shared history. When my friends from high school post, 'It's 11:11" on Facebook, we all laugh because we understand, 30 years later, what it means.
I am not always the best wife, daughter, mother, sister, or friend that I can be. But I never stop trying to do better. Do you?
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Don't you hate it when....
Yesterday driving home I thought of a great topic to blog about but I cannot remember what it was today. I hate that. I had it all worked out in my head but it is gone today.
I find that happening to me more and more. I am no longer the young cute one in the room. My hair is turning gray faster than you can imagine, my face is more and more wrinkled, my skin is drier now. And I think I may have passed the point when I can say that I only need glasses for reading. It is funny how aging affects your body.
But I am more confident in myself now. I am less concerned about what people think of me. I am more assured in the decisions I make and more confident in the outcomes of those decisions. I take more pleasure in the little things and don't wait for the "grand gesture". I tell people what I think more and take every opportunity to tell those I love how much they mean to me.
So my body is showing the negative effects of aging but my mind and personality are showing the positive effects of aging. Kind of ironic, don't you think. Now if I can just remember all the wisdom I have gained growing up, life will be perfect.
I find that happening to me more and more. I am no longer the young cute one in the room. My hair is turning gray faster than you can imagine, my face is more and more wrinkled, my skin is drier now. And I think I may have passed the point when I can say that I only need glasses for reading. It is funny how aging affects your body.
But I am more confident in myself now. I am less concerned about what people think of me. I am more assured in the decisions I make and more confident in the outcomes of those decisions. I take more pleasure in the little things and don't wait for the "grand gesture". I tell people what I think more and take every opportunity to tell those I love how much they mean to me.
So my body is showing the negative effects of aging but my mind and personality are showing the positive effects of aging. Kind of ironic, don't you think. Now if I can just remember all the wisdom I have gained growing up, life will be perfect.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Less than 24 hours!!
We are in countdown to my arrival in Tulsa to see the hubby, pups and friends! I can't wait!!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Home!
I'm heading home for the 4th of July holiday this weekend. I can't wait to see my hubby, puppies and all my friends. I already have a lunch and pedicure date and a evening cookout with friends planned. I'm only home for two days so I'm not sure how much more I can pack in. I'm ready to be back with my family. I miss them terribly!
Not much to report today, I've been feeling yucky lately. I worked at eating better today hoping that would help some. I also drank LOTS of water. We'll see if that does anything. But say a quick prayer for me to feel better. I would appreciate it.
Not much to report today, I've been feeling yucky lately. I worked at eating better today hoping that would help some. I also drank LOTS of water. We'll see if that does anything. But say a quick prayer for me to feel better. I would appreciate it.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Questions I ask
Well, I did not make it to the beach today. The weather turned ugly after the laundry was done. So I went to the mall instead. Believe it or not, I didn't buy anything other than a iced frappe from Coffee Beanery. But I found myself asking all sorts of questions while there. You will understand after you see these questions that I did not actually verbalize the asking.
1. Young girls, why do you come to the mall in your pajamas with no bra on? Especially since you are here with young boys. Is this really the way you want males to view you? Aim higher than being viewed as a piece of....well let's call it 'meat'.
2. Really, young man?? You looked in your dresser and thought, yes - the t-shirt that has the entire sides cut out, that's the one that I will wear to the mall? That shirt might be appropriate when playing baseball but not at the mall. I do not want to see that much of you!
3. Why do people wear flip flops where their toes hang off the ends? Buy a bigger size! Aren't shoes supposed to protect your feet from the ground? It's just weird to see your toes hanging off the ends.
4. Why do women that do not take care of their feet wear flip flops? I love flip flops and all things summer. But I understand that it is my duty to society to make sure that I have cute feet and well manicured toes before wearing them!
5. Why do men wear sandals? Gross!! Just say no!
6. Why do people let their children yell at the top of their lungs in public? Park - yes. Mall - no! I love kids but I don't want to have them screaming while I am shopping.
7. Why do parents scream at their children? And no, they were not the parents of the children that were screaming. It doesn't serve to make them act better and it makes you look stupid and mean.
All and all I had a great visit to the mall but it left me pondering. And yes I know, these questions show that I am no longer someone your mother warned you about, I am your mother! Now pull up your pants, button your shirt, comb your hair and go to the mall!
1. Young girls, why do you come to the mall in your pajamas with no bra on? Especially since you are here with young boys. Is this really the way you want males to view you? Aim higher than being viewed as a piece of....well let's call it 'meat'.
2. Really, young man?? You looked in your dresser and thought, yes - the t-shirt that has the entire sides cut out, that's the one that I will wear to the mall? That shirt might be appropriate when playing baseball but not at the mall. I do not want to see that much of you!
3. Why do people wear flip flops where their toes hang off the ends? Buy a bigger size! Aren't shoes supposed to protect your feet from the ground? It's just weird to see your toes hanging off the ends.
4. Why do women that do not take care of their feet wear flip flops? I love flip flops and all things summer. But I understand that it is my duty to society to make sure that I have cute feet and well manicured toes before wearing them!
5. Why do men wear sandals? Gross!! Just say no!
6. Why do people let their children yell at the top of their lungs in public? Park - yes. Mall - no! I love kids but I don't want to have them screaming while I am shopping.
7. Why do parents scream at their children? And no, they were not the parents of the children that were screaming. It doesn't serve to make them act better and it makes you look stupid and mean.
All and all I had a great visit to the mall but it left me pondering. And yes I know, these questions show that I am no longer someone your mother warned you about, I am your mother! Now pull up your pants, button your shirt, comb your hair and go to the mall!
Common dilemma
Here's my dilemma - work or play? Today I really need to go do laundry but I really want to go to the beach. So, what't a girl to do? My understanding is that we don't have too many months of pretty weather but I can't wear dirty clothes to work next week. If I would get up and get going I could probably do both. The best of both worlds!
I've been bummed this week. I think that I've had enough of hotel living and it is beginning to wear on me. I need my husband and dogs here. I need to have all the love waiting for me when I get home each evening! Time to quit being so picky and find a house.
I've been bummed this week. I think that I've had enough of hotel living and it is beginning to wear on me. I need my husband and dogs here. I need to have all the love waiting for me when I get home each evening! Time to quit being so picky and find a house.
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